The end of this fucking year and decade. The decade itself was probably my personal best decade ever as I spent it living with and loving Larry, the one I always dreamed of having in my life. But it also is the decade in which I was on the path of losing him. 2020 may be when he dies, but he died this December, at least the full Larry we all love. Yes, there are glimpses of Larry in who he is now, but it’s all mixed in with just confusion and exhaustion. I miss him. 2019 tho? Fuck this year. Despite there being some fun stuff, this year has been too much and I don’t plan on recapping it here. Just ugh. Today, the hospice nurse Jennifer stopped by – Larry’s oxygen levels are low, as is sodium, so we have to try to work on that, but there’s the unsaid statement of ‘does it really matter at this point?’ She then basically told us that regardless, there’s not much time left – a week or so at this point. It’s not surprising and i was surprised she even said 2 weeks. We just can’t have him suffer.
Paras and Carey came by in the early afternoon. They had indicated they wanted to yesterday, and this morning I texted them beforehand to let them know they don’t have to come over as I think I want most people, those who haven’t seen him lately, to have a strong, happy memory of Larry. But they were okay and wanted to come, and I am glad they did. It’s hard to see new reactions to Larry – they couldn’t help but cry. Larry engaged with them a little, but at this point, he’s so out of it. Nothing like when he talked a little to Stacie and Trent just a few days ago. Paras & Carey had printed out some pictures from adventures and parties the last few years – it was a wonderful reminder of times past. Afterwards, Sveta came over and hung out for a few hours – watching Annie with us and also bringing a ton of food. Also we received a delivery from Katz’s Delicatessen in NYC, courtesy of Arielle of my NBC days! So incredibly generous, and great for our NYE dinner. Watched Yesterday as well as I was enjoying watching movies with musical numbers that Larry liked. Not sure he watched, but you never know. Fran and Joel went to bed around 11pm- I made it to midnight. Wasn’t going to not get my kiss from my husband.
Yeah, so we did that. Saw The Force Awakens a third time, but this time at the oh-so-awesome Chinese Theater. Cool history there what with the original Star Wars premiering there oh so many years ago in 1977. The outside of the theater certainly looks similar now as it did then, but certainly not the immediate vicinity! That’s all completely different, as is the inside of the theater. With it being converted to a true and massive IMAX theater, it is way more comfortable than it was long ago.
Anyway, our third time (and likely last, in the theater) seeing The Force Awakens was still thrilling, and still leaves you wanting to know just what is up with Luke and Rey. Where’s this all going? One thing that was interesting to note is that when Rey finally gets to fighting with a lightsaber (man, that scene where the lightsaber gets force’d out of the snow? pretty damn sweet, even knowing it’s coming), she uses much the same style as the Emperor did when he was finally shown fighting with a lightsaber in Revenge of the Sith (Episode III). That’s definitely neither here nor there as that would be way too big a stretch, but still interesting that her fighting style is so similar to his.
So 2016! Here we go. It should prove to be quite a year – Larry & I have a wedding to continue planning and then execute; I’m turning 40 (UGH). Hopefully work continues to go well for both of us. Here’s to losing some weight and getting slightly more healthy too.
As for 2015 – it had more hits than misses, that’s for sure. Larry & I were reviewing it yesterday (before promptly passing out at 12:01 am this morning) and while the lows of 2015 were pretty shitty (changing jobs, Larry’s pancreatitis) – there was a lot to be happy with. Both of us getting new jobs, moving to a new apartment, getting ENGAGED! —2015 didn’t suck like some years.
Lots of excitement ahead, that’s for sure. Time to just enjoy each day, do our best to appreciate what we have, and let shit go that honestly needs to be let go. As I write this, The Beatles’ “Let It Be” is playing. Applicable. Maybe I’ll get back to my 2014 writing rhythm too – I definitely let my schedule slack a bit more this past year with the new job, but I think 2016 will be worthy of writing about. It’s gonna be good.
That’s the title of one of Britney Spears’ new songs and if you say it just right, it is also highly juvenile yet HILARIOUS. I can’t believe one of her songs is titled that.
WELL! Here’s where things stand now that it’s 2009 –
- I now have TWO apartments and ONE house. I have officially become a real-estate mogul. Okay, that’s taking it a bit too far. But right now my name is associated with the Riverwalk apartment in Jersey, my soon-to-be swank UWS apartment, and my house in Colorado. Oy. A lesser person would pass out from the stress. Me? I just develop panic attacks! LOL.
- Concerning the oh-so-awesome new apartment, I got the keys last week before New Years. Before I went home to Los Angeles for Christmas (more on that later), I bought a new 52" Samsung flat-panel LCD TV which is effing AWESOME. I was going to buy it from Best Buy, but those bitches had a) the nerve to not have a delivery date for it before JANUARY 20 (yes, still in our future) and 2) not even have the TV I wanted in stock in any of the 6 stores around the NYC area and iii) I know I mixed up the listing increments. I did that for Jenny. She has a love of the Bart that is the ultimate in unrequited love so I thought I’d give it some appreciation. BWahahahahaqhahahahahahaha1!111111111!!!!!
- I ended up using Crutchfield.com and man, I wonder why anyone would buy big-ticket electronics anywhere else. I got the same price I would have paid for a lesser TV for the much higher-end model, FREE shipping, and no sales tax. SahhhhWEEET. They ended up delivering that this past Friday (Jan 2nd) to my empty apartment. And it is awesome to behold. I also bought from Crutchfield a matching TV stand and Larry & I built that yesterday and today, having fair to satisfactory success. I say that because the floor in my apartment is not what one would call ‘level’. It took a bit of work to make it okay. But once I put a lot more stuff in the place, it won’t look wrong.
- Yesterday we went to Macy’s where I bought a new couch since I had sold all my previous couches before moving away from Colorado. I got a Macy’s card and got it on 12-months same-as-cash, which is YAY! Free shipping on the couch too, which is a 4-pc sectional. Comfy. I’ll get that this upcoming Friday, after…
- …the movers come move me out of my current digs in West New York! I set that up for Thursday which is all sorts of stress-inducing for me. I hate moving with a passion. I wish it was just over. It soon will be, but still. Hate it.
- So come this upcoming weekend – well, I think I’ll have a pretty fucking awesome place.
- Christmas in Los Angeles! Yes – I flew back to Los Angeles from the 23rd through to the 28th. It was so great to get back home and see Mom and Harv, as well as a whole lot of other friends and family.
- The first day back, Harv picked me up and for dinner Mom had got us El Pollo Loco!!!!! I heart El Pollo Loco and really wish it existed out here in NYC, just like I wish the Noodles chain from Colorado Springs was out here too. <sigh>
- The first family outing was on Christmas Eve when we partook in the Sperske annual Christmas Eve celebration, although many of the cousins/kids didn’t make it this year, so it was a relatively quiet time. Doesn’t mean I didn’t have a good time though seeing all my aunts and the cousins who did show up. It’s always fun when this family gets together!
- On Christmas Day, we went over to our friends EB & Andrea’s house in Monrovia, and of course had EB’s world-famous prime rib. I ate far too much and literally had a food headache after getting back home that night. It’s a good thing, but not really. But it was so delicious!
- The day after Christmas, I got to spend some time with my buds Mila and Sveta. Mila came over in the early afternoon and picked me up and we began our Memory Tour ’08 in style, first going to Target. Mila likes to pretend she celebrates Christmas and definitely enjoys the after-Christmas sales on all holiday items. Then we went to BURGER BASKET(!) which is one of our cherished childhood places to eat. We would eat there all….the….time. We also swung by MHS and took some pictures (all my pictures are still on my camera for a little bit longer – sorry!). We then headed out to North Hollywood where Sveta lives and we crested the Hollywood Hills and drove around West Los Angeles and ate at our spot, The Stinking Rose ( a great garlic-y restaurant). It is never a dull moment with all of us together. I really really hope those two can make it out to visit me this spring. It would be redonk. After dinner we drove around some of the Hobie highlights, including around and in UCLA and Westwood as well as various locales throughout Los Angeles. It was so strange to see that Bookstar Beverly Connection was actually gone and replaced by an Old Navy!!!!!!!
- Finally on Saturday, we met up with some of Harv’s brothers and sisters-in-law at Mimi’s Cafe which was awesome as I hadn’t seen them for literally five years. Then that afternoon my stister Stacie and her husband Phil and two of their boys came over for some Christmas fun.
- As you can see, it was non-stop and it was EXHAUSTING. I loved it, but seriously, that was not what anyone could call ‘relaxing’.
- And of course, New Year’s in New York! This year was a whole lot better than last year’s (and the year before that, and so on and so on…..) as one, I had someone to kiss that wasn’t family or a friend. Two, it wasn’t spent alone, which I’ve done far too many times to count as an adult. Third, it was a blast to celebrate it in New York City. Shelly’s co-worker (and our friend, of course) Claudia had invited us to where her husband, Gualti, is the head chef at, a restaurant called Revel, in the Meatpacking District. So Shelly, Larry, and I went along with Claudia and it was a great time. It was definitely cold as hell outside, and I feel bad for those poor schmoes who felt that Times Square was their place to be to ring in the new year. No gracias. But inside the restaurant, where we had a full four-course meal and fantastic wine, the atmosphere was fun and exciting. And warm. It was nice to not be crammed into a place where you can’t even sit. It was especially nice to be amongst friends and of course, Larry. So yes, I hope this New Year’s celebration was a sign of good things to come.
- These last few days, it’s just been a matter of getting everything lined up for the move. The TV is there and the cable guy was there this morning hooking up my high-speed internet and HD-DVR service. Yay! Thursday will be moving and Friday I’ll get a couch. Saturday night is the loft party!!! Be there or be square (this is what cool people say when they throw parties….) Larry & I even cleaned the windows today – ugh, those bad boys were Le Filthy.
Normally I do a wrap-up of the year, and I think I still will. Probably tomorrow. But I at least wanted to let you know I was still kicking around and hope that everyone is doing well too. Here’s to a fantastic 2009!!