Panic Attack

 (No more countdown…weird)

So I woke up this morning completely stressed about all the stuff I have to do in the next 3 weeks. COMPLETELY stressed.

It’s kind of hard to go back to sleep once you realize you’ve committed yourself (I guess I could end the sentence there…but I won’t) to upheaving your life for something cool and crazy. And that realization slapped me in the face like someone I just called a whore. (by the way, WHORE is a fun word to say – you can say it with such different inflections – fun for all ages!) I began to list all the things I still have to do in the next three weeks, and I’m going to clue you into my mental processes and then you will be a full-fledged member of the Hobie-Neurotic Club:

  • Have to do shittons of laundry (yes, I know, everyone has to do this, but I HATE laundry… at least I don’t have to go down to a river and beat my clothes against rocks… so I’ll quit my whining)
  • Mow the damn grass (I also have to sharpen the blades of the mower since I haven’t ever and I have no idea how to do it or with what…. yes, I actually dwelled on this this morning)
  • Get a key made for my property manager (which led me into my whole panicky spiral of doom because I am still kinda scared about this damn house and wishing it would sell but it’s not so now I have to rent it and I don’t want a psycho renting it and destroying it and hoping that the property manager is good and knowing that she is but still hoping that I’m not being too optimistic and not even knowing where the hell you go to get a key made – yes, I’m insane)
  • Thinking about my upcoming househunting trip to New Jersey (and hoping that all the rooms I’m interested in don’t get rented while I’m flying out there and wondering what the hell would I do if that IS the case because then I’d have to like knock on doors and windows and figure out the next step in getting a place to live and what if I end up in the streets with a laptop and a Nintendo DS and that’s it? – again, this spiral of doom thingy knows no bounds and makes everything a great rosey shade of INSANE)
  • Hoping I can sell most if not all the items I want to sell (but what if they don’t sell and nobody wants these things and I have to ship them out to New Jersey and then I have to pay for storage after a month and what if costs like $500/month I can’t afford that!)
  • My Dad and Pat are leaving Colorado Springs on Tuesday morning (when am I going to see them again? When am I going to see my Mom and Harv again? I don’t think I even can begin to plan a trip right now during these next 3 weeks as there’s just NO TIME (as Jack Bauer of 24 would say) and who knows what the holidays are going to be like and once again my folks are going to be disappointed/mad….)
  • What if I can’t do the job at NBC? (and I find out I’m retarded and can’t spell or go to the bathroom or don’t know how to dress anymore and mix patterns and colors and belts and shoes and get lost on the subway and end up in Maine and have no clue how to get back to my apartment because I don’t even know the address yet….)
  • Wondering if anyone cares about what I wrote last week or at all ever or if they think I’m foolish for just up and leaving Colorado Springs (why ruin a good thing? I’ve got a great house and a great circle of friends…. but at this point in my life (and also during the panic attack) I realized that I HAVE to do this all because it’s such an amazing opportunity and really, it’s been a goal of mine to come to New York City)

….. so basically I let the spiral of doom take me down its path and once I got to the end of it, I realized that none of these things are insurmountable. Sure, they’re scary, and maybe expensive, but I’ve got the AF VSP money and if that gets burned up in the process of me following my dreams, well, so be it. I’ll have a great job that will allow me to probably avoid actually burning my VSP money so honestly, everything will get resolved. Each of these situations has a clear set of steps I need to take and I’ll take them.

So I got out of bed, took a shower, and began my day knocking off little steps of each task as I could do it. And I think by the time I end up in my car ready to drive out of Colorado Springs for good towards New York, I’ll be ready.

Anyways, here’s a pic of me and Dad and Pat from a few days back when we were at Joe’s Crab Shack. They’re leaving shortly for Albuquerque and eventually California. Happy Trails and Safe Driving, guys!

Dad, Pat and me at Joe's Crab Shack
Dad, Pat and me at Joe's Crab Shack31-Aug-2007 18:11, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141

And in other news, I went with KD to see the movie Stardust last night. Fantastic! A great fairy tale type movie and it was very much like the Princess Bride, although not quite as fanciful as that one. But highly entertaining and lots of great actors, especially Michelle Pfeiffer, Robert DeNiro, Claire Danes and Charlie Cox. All very charismatic in their roles and the story was always gripping. Good times.

Oh yeah, I’m a CIVILIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

…and unemployed. For 3 weeks or so, at least. It’s a weird feeling – I have pretty much had a job nonstop since around Thanksgiving of my Junior year in High School, which was in 1992. Yowza.

Peace out, bitches.

ONE!!! almost (T-0)

Seems my countdown was to 1 September…but the above number means 0 days and some amount of minutes till 1 Sep. Close enough.

So I’m outprocessed as of yesterday morning and in one and a half hours my time, I will be officially separated from the US Air Force, after over 13 years of service in some shape or fashion (5 years AFROTC -don’t tell me that doesn’t count as I worked my ass off for UCLA AFROTC- and 8 years Active Duty). BOOYAH. I had a great going-away/separation party yesterday afternoon/evening at Jack Quinn’s, as you’ll see by the buttload of pictures below. Got a lot of great gifts and it was nice to see the people I’d been working with these past two years one more time. Obviously I’ll be seeing my close friends again lots before I actually head out for NYC, but you know what I mean.

I’ve been steadily working on getting moved though – I really only have 3 weeks to get a LOT of shit done. I’ve booked my househunting flight for a few days next week to New Jersey/New York, and hopefully…okay, not hopefully….let’s say that upon my return next week, I WILL have a place to call home on the East Coast. So that’s that!

Okay, I just want to get the pictures up – I’m getting sleepy and I have to get up tres early tomorrow morning to take Susan and Jeff to the airport. As in, I’m getting up at 4am to pick them up at 4:30am. Ugh. And now, it’s picture time!!!!!!

30 August 2007 – My AF Going-Away at Jack Quinn’s

Uh trouble for Jeff? Nope!
Uh trouble for Jeff? Nope!30-Aug-2007 13:35, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 8.0, 7.7mm, 0.006 sec
Jack Quinn - the scene of the party
Jack Quinn - the scene of the party30-Aug-2007 14:10, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.006 sec
Table Pic #1
Table Pic #130-Aug-2007 14:20, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Table Pic #2
Table Pic #230-Aug-2007 14:21, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.02 sec, ISO 141
Table Pic #3
Table Pic #330-Aug-2007 14:21, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Table Pic #4
Table Pic #430-Aug-2007 14:21, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Todd Wynn's very white arm
Todd Wynn's very white arm30-Aug-2007 14:29, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 8.0, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Becky Beckertons
Becky Beckertons30-Aug-2007 14:29, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Sue Kittel, former SCB superintendent
Sue Kittel, former SCB superintendent30-Aug-2007 14:29, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 4.9, 23.1mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
The beginning of the KD closeups: First, Todd Wynn
The beginning of the KD closeups: First, Todd Wynn30-Aug-2007 14:29, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 4.9, 23.1mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Me and Beer, in repose
Me and Beer, in repose30-Aug-2007 14:30, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 8.0, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
I'm turning around for some unknown reason
I'm turning around for some unknown reason30-Aug-2007 14:30, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Dale, John and Tom
Dale, John and Tom30-Aug-2007 14:30, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 2.8, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Jeff, with attitude
Jeff, with attitude30-Aug-2007 14:31, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 8.0, 7.7mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 141
Susan, with fork
Susan, with fork30-Aug-2007 14:31, Canon Canon PowerShot SD900, 4.9, 23.1mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 154

That’s enough pictures for one day. But I will leave you with this: what you probably thought or assumed about me, well, you were right.

TWO… (T-2)

Just a final outprocessing with the Military Personnel Flight in the morning and I’m done.

Not much to say today, but had to update just to continue the countdown. Had my last ‘duty’ day at work today which amounted to me going around to the offices I wouldn’t see again inside and out the mountain and visiting those folks there. So farewell Cheyenne Mountain. It’s been a time. When I got home, I ended up playing more BioShock (aka computergame crack). And now I have my going-away at Jack Quinn’s to look forward to. Hopefully I don’t get too thrashed. Anyways, I should probably get to sleep now, although I am watching ‘The Jerk’ right now on Comedy Central and I had forgotten how funny that movie is. NO… must go to sleep!!!! Tomorrow is going to be a long day.

Three… (T-3)

And so begins the final countdown to me being a civilian. Fuckin-A.

It’s been over a week since my last update – bad on me. Don’t have a very good excuse, to be honest. It’s just that the last week or so has been kinda busy in the evening. Much of last week I was hanging out with people each night – a few nights I spent hanging out with Byron while he was out here (and I was continuing the addiction-to-Guitar-Hero program which went without a hitch), my old neighbor EB was in Denver for business so he came down here one night and we had dinner, and then I spent one afternoon at my Dad and Pat’s to help them set up their new HP Vista PC (I’m almost inclined to go to Vista myself…but then I think of all the asspain and think again). And then one night I spent studying solely for my Security+ exam which I took on Thursday and which I rocked: Out of 900 points, I got 863 (to pass, you need 764). So yay for me. It’s not as if I really need it anymore, but I’m glad to have it. I will NOT continue to prepare for the CISSP exam though, basically that’s a huge pain that I don’t need anymore (it was mostly resume fodder, to be honest), it’s $500 I’d happily have back in my account, and the next test I could take is 30 Sep and in Denver….

….and I won’t be anywhere near Denver on that day because I’ll have been at work at NBC for just over a week by that time! Yep, the NBC offer is a done deal and as of today, my first day at the job has been established as Monday, 24 Sep. Yowza. That makes it much more real for me. I’ve got just over three whole weeks to househunt, pack up my shit, and drive out to NYC. Heart is definitely racing! But I’ve been looking at a few places and I’m very optimistic about them. I think out of all the ones I’ve been looking at, I should find a great place. Here’s hoping.

Two duty days left in the military (and then 3 years as an Inactive Ready Reservist…which means that if the Air Force has to call up personnel for some ridiculous reason, I could theoretically find myself back in Active Duty, but I try not to think too much about that possibility). Frankly, it’s hard to really fathom it. As you have probably seen on this site, since almost 365 days ago, I’ve been keeping a green count and at the time I started it, 365 days seemed like a long time. And to be honest, it was. The time did not exactly fly by, but that’s not to say it’s still not surprising that it’s nearly September 2007. I have fairly un-mixed emotions about the whole thing. I’m ready to be done. Cheyenne Mountain has not left the best taste in my mouth, primarily for the Air Force but probably for the military overall. It’s probably a situation of circumstance and location for me, as I know plenty of people who are still thrilled to be in the military, and good for them. But this past assignment has been quite enough for me to make up my mind that the military is not at all what I want to do anymore. Learned lots, but I’m definitely looking forward to being New York-Hobie for a few years!!!!! I figure I have two more updates to dwell on my military-related thoughts, and by that last one, perhaps I’ll be completely honest about a few things.

So I’ve got a lot of work cut out for me in the next few weeks. My plan is to fly out to the NYC area (on NBC’s dime, natch) to go visit the apartments I’ve seen and choose one while out there. That should hopefully be a very short trip. I’ll then have an idea of what exactly I’ll need to bring with me. Then I embark on selling nearly everything else I own. Yep, it’s time to clean house of all my big furniture stuff. Here’s a link to what I’m selling for those morbidly curious:

Hobie’s Moving Sale – Almost Everything Must Go!!!!

Tell all your Colorado-based friends if they are in need of some furniture! Then I’ve got to hope that my house either sells or rents. I’m resigned to the fact that I’ll probably have to rent it and probably at a loss on my part, but I’d rather pay a bit to ‘subsidize’ the rent then to have to pay an additional mortgage on top of my rent in NY/NJ. But that’s a rant for another day. Keep fingers crossed.

In family news, my mom had eye surgery. The primary reason was to remove the cataracts that are developing in her eyes, which are hereditary I think and something I probably get to look forward to in a few years. They’re working on her eyes one at a time, but a secondary reason and bonus for her is that they’re going to fix her vision while they’re operating. How sweet!! But it’ll be weird for her, as she’s had imperfect vision since she was 12 and glasses have been part of her face for so long now. I don’t know how it’ll be if she doesn’t have them on! But the first surgery went fine today and then she goes back in approximately a month. Yay! Other family news: Dad and Pat are going to be departing the Springs after this Labor Day weekend for California. It’s been great to have them around this summer, that’s for sure. Hope they have fun at their next campground in El Centro!

Okay, almost done for today. A few last trivial things to write about. First, I am hopelessly addicted to the new video game, Bioshock. Unbelievably fun and involving and creepy and eerie first-person shooter/game set underwater in a Utopia experiment that went all wrong. And then I also finished reading the graphic novel/comic book Watchmen. Highly Recommended!!!!! Can’t wait to see this movie…in 2009. Oy. Who KNOWS where I’ll be living then?????? 😉

Alright, enough from me today. I sent out a ‘Farewell’ email to most of all my past AF friends yesterday and heard back from quite a few of them today. I’ll definitely miss that camaraderie, but it’s easy enough to keep in touch with people nowadays, I have little excuse not to keep in touch with them. Seriously!

So You Mighta Heard.. (T-12)

…that NBC is going to give me an offer to work out in NYC! Should actually have something in my hands Monday or Tuesday!

So yes, I finally found out this past Thursday that a job offer was headed my way from NBC! Originally I was supposed to hear from them at the beginning of the week, but apparently they had one more interview to tackle before they could make a decision. Now, I like to tell myself that I won out over other possible candidates, but it’s entirely likely that maybe I’m choice #2 or #3 because maybe the others passed on the job. And who knows, maybe I will, because the one thing that is a possible deal-breaker for me will be if they don’t offer a competitive and reasonable salary. I have heard nothing but how expensive it is to live out there, and from looking at craigslist and, I can attest to that fact. And actually, I am pretty much resigning myself to having to get a roommate, and while I swore I’d never do that again, I think this will just be a necessity. But luckily, I’ve found some very promising places on so far. They aren’t in Manhattan, but actually in New Jersey, one in Hoboken and one in West New York. Both are really nice condominiums with a ton of great amenities, and I’d be able to actually bring my car and have it available, which is highly unlikely in Manhattan. And with the fact that I’d have to work probably in both Englewood Cliffs, New Jersey and at 30 Rock, I’m glad to potentially have the flexibility. So here’s hoping that I get positive word back this week.

Basically, the job search and outprocessing has still dominated my life the past week. I found out how much I’ll actually be getting from the Air Force when I separate with the VSP – taxes suck! So I ended up playing the Powerball to try to make that money back…. and well, that didn’t work out either. But I knew that I’d rather win $245 million over $210 measly million. Seriously. But I’ve been really trying to get other jobs lined up, especially locally in either the Springs or in Denver, as if NBC falls through for some reason, I think I’d rather stay here and live in my house for a few years more and wait out the bad real estate market. And there’s actually plenty of opportunities out there, so again, cross your fingers. I just can’t believe I’m 12 days away from being as Jenny said, a fucking silly civilian!!!!!!

And oh yeah, Big Brother 8 is such a dramatic mess…and I can’t stop watching. Actually, the ridiculous drama seems to have calmed down for the time being though. Have to wait and see if ED will flip out again soon. That’s good stuff.

Here are some pictures that Erin took a few weeks back in July when we had a Group picnic at the Mountain Man Park at Cheyenne Mountain. Turned out pretty good! Thanks Erin!

6 July 2007 – Pics at CMAFS Park

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I also will have some pics up, hopefully tomorrow, that I took from the past few days. Oh, if you haven’t been going to the Shooting Gallery, please start. And also, I have been trying to get myself to write more DVD reviews, and my latest is up for V For Vendetta.

And how could I forget???? Byron, Connie and Aidan came out to the Springs for a few days! Byron will be out here all next week for an inspection he’s doing, but the week before he brought the whole family out. It was great to see them, and they stayed over a few nights which was cool, but then they went camping here at Farish and then up at Estes Park. I should get to see Byron this week as well, so that will be fun. Alright, now it’s late and I’ve got to go to sleep. I better not even look over at my game PC and double click on the Civilization IV: Beyond the Sword icon. I suck at the game but I can’t stop playing it.